A story about me
I just came across this website last night… and I think it’s going to be my new addiction for the summer. since no one is at college, facebook may be kinda dead, and myspace is getting lame… so i’ll need something to distract myself from summer classes (i will be pwned by orgo… lol).
I went to Van Saun Zoo for the hundredth time =) but this time was awesome because caelyn came. she’s almost 2. yay!!! i <3 being aunt emma. or emmy. or eh-eh. or whatever she calls me. yea.
i’m [almost] always up for meeting people.. except for the occasional creepy, awkward guy who keeps trying to talk with me and i can tell he’s trying too hard. that makes me feel uncomfortable. like, why try so hard and flatter me so much when you don’t even know me? i just don’t get it sometimes. you need to have confidence and not focus everything on me, or yourself. like, just be YOU and i’ll be able to see if i wanna be friends. most likely i will. honest, funny, confident, witty… and also accepting of and comfortable with me, without trying too hard! i’m pretty easygoing and simple, it’s not that hard to get to know me anyway. also, if i’m interested in meeting you, you’ll know. if i’m never the one initiating conversations, then you’re probably wasting your time. i like the chase, too, so i like to be able to earn your attention instead of having it thrown at me. then that’s boring. haha.
great now i’m not sure if i’m sounding simple or complex now.. oh well. all i know is that sometimes i know when i wanna meet someone. there’s that spark of “wow, you’re awesome, i need to know you.” so if anyone feels that for me, don’t tell me about it, just do it. get to know me, and tell me about yourself too. i love talking with people about everything.. i need to be on the same wavelength with a person. life experiences are usually my main topic. i like to be able to vent to someone about something, let it all out, and then i like to hear that person tell me about THEIR story, too. i need to be able to relate to someone. i like to feel needed.
(note how i say people… not him or her… because i’m still not sure what i like best. everyone’s awesome in their own way, and i’ve had feelings for both guys and girls. while my longest and most emotional relationship with a girl (also my first love), i’m still hopeful to have the same type of thing with a guy. if not, i know i like girls too… lol. i’m pretty flexible, but at the same time i’m picky. i’m not attracted to just any guy. or girl, for that matter. even though every person i’ve liked has been completely different, each one has something that i really like. i’m still not sure what that is. but when i know i want something, i know. and i try all i can to get it. that’s how you should know if i even wanna be friends with you. i don’t like to waste my time on things that don’t mean anything to me. if i see that there’s something meaningful there, i don’t let go until i have to. hence, my failed first love… i think i dragged it out and belabored the relationship long after it should have been over. oops.)
